Full-Blown Suffering: A Personal Struggle Against the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches

It was a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation erupted behind my one eye. This was followed by quick shocks, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I left a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and once more in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-blown pain in class by 9.30am. In late 2019, a GP finally referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.

This condition typically start with severe pain behind a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more often affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, severe pain around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in seasonal bouts; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long pain-free periods.

What connects patients is the intensity. One study rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered 64% of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm during attacks; the figure dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the floor and hit my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like several causes, made things more intense. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in 2002 at a national hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to organize daily activities around unpredictable attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across the ages. “The earliest account of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a book on the subject. They linked the ailment to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical texts propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a separate condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more folk remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key artery which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Specialists say delays in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is essential: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Specific features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But a lot of first arrive to A&E or are given unsuitable therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack passed.

Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No tablets or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the bouts of well-known people.

But leading neurologists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an injection into the side of the head where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.

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Michael Arnold
Michael Arnold

Elena Visser is a seasoned hiker and outdoor blogger based in the Netherlands, sharing practical advice for nature lovers.